So, as I said last week My cat died, which led into a pretty sad week for me. I can always tell when I am out of balance as the physicality of the world really starts to play up - liquids spill, items get knocked over more easily, stuff won't fit back into places I just took them out of and other stuff falls over no matter what way I try to balance - it seemingly disobeying the laws of physics to do so. The physical-ness of the world seems out of kilter as if I don't fully fit in anymore.
The first question most people asked was "Are you going to get another Cat?" and I am not going to get another cat. I have two dogs, four turtles and a fish, so I am currently all good for pets. Besides, I don't want to replace Púca with another cat just to make it all feel easier.
My Dad told me yesterday that when his first cat died he was very sad and thought he'd never have the same relationship with another cat again. In the end though, he said, it turns out that cats are pretty much all the same and that I should just get another cat as I'll learn that Púca wasn't really that special. Now, he was coming from a good and caring place when he said that, and to be fair it's probably very true, but that's not what I want. AT ALL. I don't want to ever feel that way about Púca - I want to honour and remember her for the huge
part she played in my life.
A few years back I got out of a situation that was really unhealthy for me and by doing so I dropped about 95% of my social network. This means that Púca was pretty much the oldest friend I had in my life. She was the element that was in my life for the longest time - longer than even my wife has been.
There was so many time that she got me through very dark days - it was me and her against the world. She was great company when I didn't want to be around people. She was awesome. She was my friend.
And then, about three years ago I found her outside and she couldn't use her back two legs. Many vet visits and one to the Cat hospital in Dublin, no one knew what was wrong with her. So rather than spend any more money I didn't have on tests that weren't telling us anything anyway, I brought her home and just nursed her in my office for a few months as she recovered. She helped me when I needed it most, I helped her when she needed it most.
It took months but she did learn to walk again, but she was always a bit wonky. She seemed happy to be alive. I know I was happy she stuck around for another while.
But recently she took a bad turn. I won't go into details but suffice to say I don't think she was happy. So we took that final trip to the vet, and I stayed with her throughout the whole thing. Definitely the most heartbreaking moment of my life, and fuck me, I have had some shitty times.
Now I know a cat dying is hardly the saddest or most devastating thing in the world in the grand, or even medium, scheme of things, and I am sure that if I did get another cat that maybe I would see that all cats are just the same. But, I want to acknowledge the role she played in my life, and honour and thank for for that.
And to do that, I feel I must accept the full pain of her loss, I don't ever want to feel she was not special.
She was my friend and I will miss her greatly.
Anyway, in more upbeat news I am delighted to announce that we now have a Spanish translation of the Forty Servants Guidebook AND a new Spanish language Facebook group. You can download the PDF HERE or go to the Group HERE!
NEW BLOG POST:
Here are 5 Ideas that will make your life better – they certainly greatly improved mine! Try all, or just some of them, for a period and see if they have the same positive impact on you life as they have on mine.
1. TAKE RESPONSIBILITY FOR EVERYTHING IN YOUR LIFE.
I’ve talked about this before, but it is very much worth saying again. One of the best things I life in my life was to start being responsible for everything in it -All of it!
This doesn’t mean I get to control every event that occurs around me, of course, but it does mean that I get to control my reactions and emotions.
Controlling those elements means I control my experience. I am responsible for how I deal with everything that happens. I am responsible for my own happiness and well-being.
Taking 100% responsibility for your life means that you have to give up all your excuses on why your life isn’t the way you want it to be. It means giving up blaming other people for your lack of success or how you feel. It means giving up complaining.
Also, taking responsibility for everything in your life doesn’t mean you are to blame for everything – it just means it’s up to you and you alone in what you do with what life has given you and how you choose to view it.
LINKS TO THIS WEEK'S POSTS OVER ON AIWW:
- 5 Ideas that will make your life Better!
- THE WEEKLY WOO – Week 12: 2017
And that's it for this week - video and podcast links are below. Have a great week Folks,and I'll talk to you here next Tuesday!
New video and podcast links are below!